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I always loved rainy days. On those days, I seemed completely content being myself, as I smoothly sipped my mocha in between puddles, hiding beneath my damp hood and moist waves tangled against my face. I would watch people as they passed, wondering what that one girl was giggling about and how long ago the pining friend beside her had decided that he secretly loved her, and if she loved him back.  I was content to happily listen to one sad song after another, maybe because I'm that contradictory of a person, which is certainly true, or maybe because I was secretly hoping I would slip on a puddle and someone else who loved rainy days would help me up.  Then maybe next time it rained, we could hold hands and listen to those songs together.  Or maybe we could share his umbrella - no, we wouldn't need an umbrella and besides, the type that I wanted to help me up would certainly not use umbrellas.

I don't like rainy days anymore.  ]]> Buzznet kaitidid 2008-10-10T16:14:12Z http://kaitidid.buzznet.com/user/journal/3150721/
Much better, she thought.

She woke up the next morning; her roommate soon awoke, too, to the sound of cracking mirror glass.
]]> Buzznet kaitidid 2008-10-09T16:56:30Z http://kaitidid.buzznet.com/user/journal/3150271/
9/10/08

    I sat on the bus, watching water trickle down the window pane. The muddy puddles on the floor, tracked in at different times, by different passengers, with different destinations, reflected back reluctantly similar, expressionless faces, tinged with discontent. I sat, listening to a song about lonely people, on this lonely day; the reverberating vocals helped to cut the painful silence outside, other than the occasional shuffling of a bag, engine stall, or guttural burst from the brakes as the door reluctantly opened and another pair of muddy footprints made their way past. I sat, inadvertently tapping my foot against the cold, slippery floor, scorning myself for having forgotten my umbrella as I dragged a finger through my tangled, damp hair. I sat, wondering if everyone else noticed the silence, and if it bothered them as much as it bothered me. I wondered if they wondered what I was thinking, too; I wondered if they noticed my discontented glance, and matched it to their own. I sat, ankles drenched as dampened jeans clung, realizing that I was foolish for loving rainy days.

And I loved them all the more for it; on rainy days, my usual discontent could blend into everyone else's. Those days were the same as all others, only on those days, I could be a wallflower; I could spare the false enthusiasm.  So, maybe I loved rainy days do much, because everyone else hated them.  I am that contradictory of a person. Or, maybe, I simply enjoy indifference.

-k]]> Buzznet kaitidid 2008-10-09T16:41:47Z http://kaitidid.buzznet.com/user/journal/2807191/
during a recent party with some of my closest friends, which has become a summer tradition since the beginning of high school, maybe earlier...
at risk of sounding cliche, i realized how important those friends are, how once you have known someone for long enough, an 8 hour party can leave you wishing you had two more hours to stay and watch some terrible movie (the super mario brothers movie, anyone?)... how they know exactly what ridiculous things can make you laugh...
i must admit i was in hysterics upon opening a 'transformers' birthday card that said 'happy birthday, though guy!' on it, immediately also being reminded of the time in seventh grade at the movie theater when i accidentally hit the popcorn and it went flying everywhere.
at the bottom of the card, it even said 'action movies are boring'...
only i can be bored amidst massive explosions and car chases.
and i never hear the end of that one.
but it wasn't just that, it was how one of my best friends...my roommate-to-be... searched all of disney world for a jimminey cricket stuffed animal just as a reminder of how i 'always let her conscience be my guide'.
yes, my voice of reason is named jen...
i can't even describe the look on my face when i opened my second carebear card... everyone was pretty distraught when they couldn't find any with funshine bear on them (my favorite)... but any giant carebear card is sure to make me smile.
as is any sign of how best friends really care, about how we are sure to come rushing back from the separate ways we've headed since high school for the premier of some crazy monster movie we spent last summer filming...
so, these are my friends, new and old... some of these shots have given me a new direction to bring my art portfolio.. i think they speak volumes about adolescence, friendship, and about no matter how many crazy work schedules and internships may separate you all, summer is the time to just sit around a bonfire, in a random basement watching zombie movies...in your pool in the middle of the night... to the mini golf course you frequented in high school...
these are my friends.
my life.
our lives, intertwined.
my summer.
our summer.

































we saw a shooting star that night.



]]> Buzznet kaitidid 2008-08-04T15:04:00Z http://kaitidid.buzznet.com/user/journal/2767301/ this very well may be the end of the fan photo.
you know the one i'm talking about.
that uniform pose you see countless times daily sifting through blogs,
the one you are guilty of being found in often.
i know i am.
you know, the ones
like this


or this


or this..


or this


or this


or this


maybe you will think you're being creative and switch it up..
like this...


or this




ok you get the point by now, i would hope.



well the other day i was sitting in my summer social anthropology class. lame, i know.  but the schedule of studios and what not for an art major are all but forgiving, for purposes of scheduling and graduating on time and things.
anyway.

we were discussing ethnocentrism, and the countless "others" who have been, and still are even if you may not realize it, cast aside as something less than human, as an attraction... or in an even worse, patronizing sense, less than equal.. a 'poor', 'unfortunate', 'barbaric' thing.
my professor was flipping through pages in a book that included photographs from world fairs. well low and behold.. the photographs all kind of looked like this...


(sorry, i couldn't find the photos online...)
now mind you, these were not taken among friends by any means, their mere purpose was to show off, 'hey, look! i met the  *insert crude exonym here*!!'
now look at the photo again.

look familiar?
go ahead, deny it.
fine, so we all agree that we are not guilty of some great ethnocentric slight against our favorite bands.
far from it.
but the concept that stuck with me is best described by lyrics i heard the next night at an all time low show.
the song was the show opener, and the first track off of their latest album: 'this is how we do'.

Show us off to all your friends,
We're the trophy boys from here to if and when,
we break and break your dreams of,
keeping us a secret.
We're the back-pocket believers,
we're the locals who went postal,
call it treason while you can.

I'm just a face for every picture,
a smile for your scrap-books,
and a story to be told, and told, but I'm
but I'm loving every second
so commemorate this hour,
as the last I spend regretting what I have.

no matter how you put it, no matter how much you vehemently stress the fact that this person means something to you (which, of course, i know they do. the people who inspire us, our idols, our great talents, the ones who sing us to sleep at night even if they don't realize it..) still, if this is the case, why are you posing for this photograph?
you know, in your own mind and memory, that said event of meeting/talking with/[insert expletive here] with said person happened.
so why do you need proof?
it looks like you made those song lyrics sound a little bit more true, doesn't it...
so. just assuming you are not going to show this photograph to anyone else but yourself.. of course, you're not going to show it to your friends, never mind the whole internet... i mean why would you have to, right? if it's just for you? just remembering the moment?
even if that is the case.
which i'm willing to bet it often is not.
you are still objectifying this one person who you have so much respect for..
to pose for, and remain in, this same photograph..this same pose that they repeatedly oblige countless other blurs and crowds of people with.
i bet it feels really special now, doesn't it.
i know, you were about to say how your moment was so much different, so much better than that.

but i just think that next time.. i'll give it a little more thought,
or just go on as always knowing in the back of my mind that i'm a hippocrite...
better a hippocrite than an embellished story, a photo in the collage of someone i barely know, i guess.



]]> Buzznet kaitidid 2008-07-29T19:48:00Z http://kaitidid.buzznet.com/user/journal/2758321/ sorry guys (and girls) , i've just had tons going on lately.
aside from all of the boring work and class things you probably don't want to hear about.... i've been spending a lot of time with acrylic paints and my guitar lately...

the last 2 weeks or so have been a blast. first i turned 18, woo! it actually wasn't all that eventful. i pretty much felt the same as i did the day before, as always. i guess now i get to call in on all of those mail order and things that say 'you must be 18 or older to call' ... i don't know why i would ever want to.. but at least now i get to vote :) and go clubbing..haha

the shortest tour ever tour was cool, all time low were amazing, as were valencia (as always), hit the lights, and there for tomorrow... and the non-acoustic version of remembering sunday since nothing seemed to be working that night.. oh well. it was unique at least.



i love seeing the last day of tours, it's like everyone's trying extra hard, like its their last chance to go out with a bang. for this tour it involved bands running around onstage in their underwear, you know, the usual ;)
it was especially funny when the police came later because of complaints or something... and i was just standing outside, along with my friend, alex, some random dude in his underwear (i forget who? haha...) and some drunk guy who must have worked on the tour or something that kept trying to hug me.
on the down side i was standing there because my friend's car had been broken into, at least all that was missing was her phone.. it was scary though.
all time low are really cool guys, i must say.
i gave jack a windup nose that walked, i don't know why, but i found it hilarious. and apparently he had never gotten one before, who knew...

i love the atl song 'this is how we do'... i'm not quite sure why, but it really hits me every time i listen to it... the lyrics basically speak for themselves.

speaking of lyrics. the new the academy is songs... wow. at first listen, yes, they sound simple. but that's the beauty of it. no extras, just genuine, concise lyrics about something so real.. if you really listen to the lyrics of 'about a girl', you'll understand what i mean. it's basically a universal song, about anyone who's sat there rehearsing lines over and over in their head to say to someone.. but never get up the nerve to tell them how they feel.


warped was amazing. part of the reason is, well, check out william beckett's blog if you haven't already.
http://thewilliambeckettblog.com/
it meant so much to me for someone to write something like that about me, it truly did. all i meant by it was, well, i was listening to this the academy is...song the other day, and hadn't painted in a while. and then i just started painting.. and it just struck me, the way one person's art can be so inspired by another's, i just thought i had to say it some how, and what better a way than with my art.
it's not even like i painted it... the music painted it, and i held the paintbrush.
regardless of anyone's opinion on the academy is... and their music (although i really do hope you love it as much as i do... or at least have given it a chance...)
william beckett is a truly talented and inspiring individual. a true artist, to me.
i just feel lucky to be the girl kaitlin he met on warped tour...


(photo credit to william beckett, i never thought i'd be saying that about one of my paintings.. )
* also, this is upside down from the way it was originally supposed to be.. but i actually like it better this way. apparently he's got an ear for music, a mind for lyrics.. and an eye for art.

everyone at warped was great. the new tai material is awesome live. mayday parade were stellar. so were all time low, although i felt really bad for this kid in front of me.. who must have been around 14.. whose parents were there with him, giving really dirty looks whenever the band were being their innapropriate little selves haha.
cobra starship, of course, rocked it, although for some reason the sound seemed kind of lacking (it wasn't their fault..).
we the kings, too, were awesome as usual. it seemed like travis was everywhereee all day for some reason haha.

i love finding new bands to listen to.. warped is a great time to do it.

oh and if you haven't already, please do me and them a huge favor.. and listen to scenes and sirens.
they're really cool and really talented guys.
here's their myspace...
http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendID=104490261

i also went to projekt revolution last sunday, in between all that.
armor for sleep were awesome, it was weird seeing ben not playing a guitar... his onstage antics are interesting to say the least.


pj has apparently also taken to wearing short shorts...haha




i guess that's all for now, my guitar is calling.

kait



]]> Buzznet kaitidid 2008-07-28T14:30:00Z http://kaitidid.buzznet.com/user/journal/2331521/ not like literally... i wish. its kinda freezing out again. but no more classes! time to dance! (woahh panic reference completely unintentional. i just remembered today though, that honda civic tour's tomorrow! cant wait to hear the new album live, and am pumped for phantom planet. i loved their new album.)


so i was thinking this morning that if i had to summarize this past year... well this past semester was far too crazy to be described but first semester definitely sounded like the 'the academy' ep, (wow... i miss oldschool the acedemy is...), tasted like pumpkin spice coffee and smelled like aussie hairspray (which smells surprisingly good) mixed with rain. im glad i got cute rainboots.


sorry that made absolutely no sense.
rewind.
my year: just think the song "slow down" by the academy is...



i just got back from watching speed racer... that movie was amazing. like...epic. and....trippy. i would definitely see it in theaters multiple times, just because it would lose some of it awesomeness on a smaller screen.
and i usually hate action movies (my friends make fun of the ironly of it but i think action movies are boring.)
but this one...i spent the whole time just thinking 'woahhh....pretty colors'


and i am usually terrible with following plots too, but i understood for once.. unlike the movie posiedon, when i asked where the water was coming from half way through the movie...and still havent heard the end of it years later.



oh and just saying.. in speed racer, susan sarandon looks nearly identical to my friend vinnie's mom. i was legit confused about why he wouldnt tell me that his mom was in a movie.


and i just decided to throw a juno party!


i am still working out the details but i do know that i am going to have bowls of orange tic tacs everywhere.


i have i slight addiction to wintergreen ones, i must admit.

oh and i was originally planning on having pregnancy tests as drink stirrers, but then realized that that might be kinda gross haha

does anyone have any ideas?
oh and while you're at it... i also need a pool party theme :)




]]> Buzznet kaitidid 2008-05-09T21:21:00Z http://kaitidid.buzznet.com/user/journal/2112351/

i pre-ordered the new 'this is ivy league' cd (which apparently has some songs on it from the 'ivy league' ep..which i have..but still excited!) and it came out yesterday, so i should be getting it soon!

i'm pretty much addicted to phantom planet at the moment, so i can't wait for the release of their new album 'raise the dead' on april 15th!

this weekend i'm going somewhere, and i don't know where... it's a surprise. i love surprises!!

long hair don't care tour on april 30th with valencia, we the kings, and the cab! i love seeing them all, they're so awesome live.. pretty much can't wait! plus this is the day after the cab's debut album 'whisper war' is released.. it should be a blast!

valencia's new album they just finished recording!

spring weekend, parties, a semiformal and a formal to go to!

portfolio review at the end of the month!

the semester has only a month left, then...summer break!

honda civic tour may 10th!! i'm in love with 'pretty. odd.', and every band they're touring with... especially motion city soundtrack and phantom planet??! epic!

warped tour warped tour warped tour! i know it's months away, but... i'm already soo excited... especially for the academy is..., cobra starship, mayday parade, all time low, forever the sickest kids, valencia, we the kings, and four year strong!

haha and this is pretty far away too, but.. since it isss before warped... my 18th birthday! which means a huge pool party, as always... but this year's will be huger! haha is that even a word?

and... i want to go to the beach :)

]]> Buzznet kaitidid 2008-04-02T12:39:00Z http://kaitidid.buzznet.com/user/journal/2003341/ well i did so much last week i couldn't possibly explain it all! but here are a couple of the fun things i did!

first of all i would like to say i love philly!

an awesome city, it really is.

ooh ok so i went to the philadelphia zoo when national geographic was filming (i had no idea until they said that i had to get out unless i wanted to be on camera... so naturally i stayed to check it out)
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it was pretty much amazing, i'll have to check it out when it airs in the fall.
i felt bad for some of the animals, they didn't look so happy in their cages, especially outside in the cold!

upenn has a gorgeous campus, and i got a chance to hang out with my good friend ben.


there's some pretty good shopping around there too, and i was pretty ecstatic to see

american apparel.

i pretty much wanted to buy everything. i did get the melange jersey sleveless turtleneck shift dress (woahh long name for a dress) in violet to go with their shiny stirrup tights in raspberry. i was kind of missing stirrup pants from the 90's...

hahaha this is me trying to act posh (not really... im rather tallish and was kind of slouching down so some of my legs could fit in the shot)

ooh and this place is really cool!

only at cereality to they really understand that cereal and candy totally go together...
and strangely, there happened to be filming going on there too! when i walked in they had just wrapped up filming for the food network.

for most of the week, i did volunteer work in health care, and it was one of the most rewarding and life-changing experiences i have had to date. i encourage everyone to support ronald macdonald house charities, shriners hospitals, and anything else you can. the work they do is simply amazing. i will not be posting any photos, as i do not want to violate anyone's privacy, but believe me when i tell you that it was fantastic.

i basically fell in love with that city...and the people in it.

i want to go back already!!

oh so before i left i did some more wandering, and surprise surprise... more shopping (gasp)
hmm...

i wandered through redding terminal market for awhile. i went on a quest for bubble tea but found none, so i got some english breakfast tea. oh and then i got some amazing crepes with strawberries and nutella!


oh and i did some very productive shopping on south street...
i found a couple really cool vintage things and some random shirts


and a few cd's i ave been meaning to get..

oh and i found some hello kitty jewelery, the ring has lipgloss in it!


oh and i can't forget my adidas track jacket in the coolest colors ever

and i happened to have a ton of things that go with it perfectly. gotta love oddly colored tights.

oh and i ate at an italian place on manayunk, and it was really good... but then i had to get up ridiculously early this morning to drive back!
but here i am.

xoxokait

perfect song of the week: tenth street by valencia
















]]> Buzznet kaitidid 2008-03-16T14:05:00Z http://kaitidid.buzznet.com/user/journal/1952931/ dear diary buzznet,

hello! long time no see, you've probably forgotten who i am!
i'm kait.
sorry i got ahead of myself. that is what this may or may not look like next week.
anyway. before we jump into next week let's start off with this past week! hmm...

ok this made me happy:

i mean, walking into a store and seeing one of your favorite bands on the cover? priceless. especially with those smiles... i mean, come on.
that made for some good reading. much better than
this:

books books exams exams labs labs labs. you get the point. but at least my calculator's pink?!

and at least i am done with it. that brings us to next week.

SPRING BREAK!
now don't excite yourselves too much. i'm not going off to some tropical island, i'm not flying to LA or shopping in Paris.  no beaches for me.
but i am off to philly to do some healthcare work in the city.

and on sunday i'm going to the zoo! maybe i'll see these:

but real ones... (sorry mister teddy.)
zoos make me feel really guilty though, seeing all those animals in cages :(
i will take some pictures though, maybe you can see some!

but yes, that brings us to packing. i desperately need to be not typing this, but packing my bags.


yes, also pink. we seem to have a theme here.

but it seems all that i have packed so far... is the most important part, of course.


my musicc!
well, i was really tempted to pack up all my art stuff and bring it along, but that would be quite heavy, and i will not be having time for it sadly. ok i must bring at least a sketchbook.

but this brings us to my point: although i will be bringing this:

yes, its green like my ipod. me and my colors. well, this is my favorite color actually.
anyway.
although the place im staying has wireless, im not sure if i will have the time to use it. especially for non- work matters. we'll see.

so until then, i will be saying goodbye to this...


and you!
 so this is me...

saying goodbye,
have an amazing week!

xoxo kait

can't stop listening to mayday parade, sonny moore, and forever the sickest kids.
need to buy more charcoal pencils, i keep drawing flower pots!
and toninght...i think it's thai takeout and bubble tea.
i also have a new addiction to bright pink lipstick.
what color should my hair be next?
and is anybody going to honda civic tour?



]]> Buzznet kaitidid 2008-03-07T11:53:00Z